The Beast Within

Illahi, illahi lama sabbachthani.

Illahi, illahi lama sabbachthani.

Odi et amor excrucior,

Moritura te salutant, imperator.

Ever had one of those days?

Those God-damned days?

When you are the picture of serenity?

You could close your eyes to Eternity?

And all that rages inside is a storm.

Of fire and ice in every form.

Of grief and rage and terrors and fears.

Of flames in eyes that shed no tears.

And if I had my way with the weather,

First would come drizzles light as a feather.

Then would come the essence of winter strife.

Then would follow ice shards, sharp as a knife.

I want the world to fucking burn!

I want flames and ashes in a shattered urn.

I want to go to fucking war.

The whole God-forsaken world, I will scour.

Crack!  Chains of the beast within.

I want release that fucking beast within.

I’ll look Death in the eye and dare him.

Flip him the fucking finger on a whim.

A hundred raka’at a night, I did bow.

A fast almost every single day, I did vow.

I made the Covenant and kept my part, damn you!

And all I earned was a broken heart, fuck you!

And if all I did was naught but dust,

Then, this my God, I promise thus.

Just as I was the Sword of Faith,

I shall be now the Angel of Wrath.

For every cut I get, a thousand I will give.

No love of life but hatred of death, do I live.

Nothing left for me but ashes and pain.

Lay me down now in wrathful rain.

I’m still waiting, you bastard!

Harlequin

The Moment

There is that moment when the Heart knows,

There is that moment when the Heart shows.

When all that was Promised will come to this.

When all that was sought is the Ultimate Bliss.

When the Veils have been parted,

To the Realm of the Departed.

When the Soul is just Crying,

When the Heart is just Dying.

When all that is sought is facade,

When all that is Yearned to discard.

When all of this world is dust.

When we have to Return thus.

Beyond the Veil lies Love,

Nothingness beyond above.

And in this world is madness.

Heart-wrenched parting and sadness.

So take me back, I want to go now.

Bring me Home, I have to leave now.

I am mad at the Separation,

I seek Annihilation in desperation.

Harlequin

Winter's Heart

Is it cold outside?

The darkest night.

With glittering eyes,

And still it defies.

The blade is keen.

Sheathed and unseen.

The armour is worn.

Of ornaments, shorn.

The heart is cold.

Only fire, be told.

Those glittering eyes,

Where warm memory dies.

Words have been said,

And dark promises laid.

I will never cry again.

I will never feel pain.

A shouldered pack,

Not looking back.

Out into the dark.

To plains stark

Is it cold outside?

It is cold inside.

I am winter’s heart.

Now shall I depart.

Harlequin

The Valentine Commission

If I knew the words to say to make you love me,

I would say them a thousand times and more each day.

And every word said as sincere as I can ever be,

My every thought is only for you to stay.

And if I sought the words to say how much I love you,

I would write a thousand years and more yet still.

I could not finish all my thoughts; if you only knew,

How you fill my being with all your self and more until.

Nothing exists of me but you and you alone,

I look for myself and still call your name.

And there is no part of my heart you do not own,

And if I lost you, my heart is never the same.

If my love for you was a castle in the sky.

Then every room in that castle was a picture you.

In every picture of you is a song without reply,

And every song a rainbow emotion of every hue.

But I see deep down that you could walk away.

That you could not see you the way I see you.

And I will do nothing to ask you to stay,

If you cannot see me the way I see you.

Harlequin